Day 124

Sorry I have been MIA for the past few days. I can say up until day 125 I was doing great. Right on track and feeling wonderful! Then yesterday happened. Between PMS and something that really upset me happening, I turned to food. I had a binge fest from 3pm till bedtime. I woke up this morning with such resolve to turn it around, but again I failed. The sad thing is, it can take me 9 days to lose 5 pounds, and only 2 to put it all back on. I'm not going to weigh myself tomorrow morning, but am going to try, yet again, to get back on track. I know in life that I'm going to have slip ups, but I need to learn how to brush it off, and just get back to it. That is where I struggle the most. I have no problem doing good for a week, two weeks, sometimes even a month, but it's like as soon as I have one "bad" meal, it turns into a month of bad meals before I can get it together! I really need to get that figured out, and I tell you, I would be skinny! :-)
 
  The one thing I can tell you from eating bad yesterday and today is I feel like CRAP! I wish there was a nicer word to explain it, but it is the truth! I'm so bloated, and I feel sick from all the nasty carbs I've eaten. As hard as eating low carb is, I feel amazing when I am doing it. Even if the scale isn't going down as fast as I would like it to be, my stomach feels flatter, and just my overall feeling is different. I need to get back at it.

  On Thursday I am going away with my dad to a baseball tournament to selling baseball equipment. It is going to be one of the most challenging weekends for me, for sure. We will be at a baseball field, surrounded by every burger joint, sub place, hot dog stand, ice cream and fried dough, and homemade lemon ice place you can imagine. And since my dad buys my food when we go away, I can't even use money as an excuse. AHHHH! To top it all off, I will have my cycle which is always when I struggle the most and my motivation is at an all time low. I am going to need prayers like no one's business for those four days. I don't want to let go and gain 5-6 pounds in a weekend. I need to start again tomorrow and get in a good mindset leading up to then. Pray for me! Hope you all have a great weekend!