Day 24

Funk. Yup, I'm in a 4-5 day funk. I knew it would eventually happen, to be honest. My flesh is always going to have days that it just doesn't want to be diligent and make healthy choices. Strangely enough, I haven't even "cheated." I haven't eaten bread, cereal, brownies, oreos, etc, but have just been eating way too much of my "healthy" desserts like the pumpkin cream cheese muffins in my freezer right now, and homemade chocolate covered almonds. I really need to learn how to eat in moderation, even when I'm not eating "bad stuff." It started with my cycle last week, and I just haven't been able to fully get back on track. I think I need to set some ground rules for myself, at least for the next 24 days. I think I need to say "No sweets" besides Skinny Chocolate and the Fuel Pull brownies. I've been having way too much fun trying all these different desserts and it is not doing me any favors. I really want to at least see the 180s before Florida. I'm between 194-195 right now after my past few days. I know it's possible, but not with how I am doing right now. Hoping tomorrow I wake up with new determination and kill it from here on out! Maybe I will report back tomorrow night and let you know how it went! :-)

Day 37

I can not believe I am in the 30's now! It's crazy to think that we are leaving in almost a month on our longest vacation ever! I'm getting super stoked to watch Ben in the Ironman, spend a week with the kids at Disney, spend another week with my BFF, and then visit family ( and the American Girl Store :-) in NYC! I almost don't want it to come, cause then it will be over in a blink of an eye...ever feel like that?

I just have to say, I feel like I won the lottery when I discovered the whole Trim Healthy Mama way of living. For once in my life, I don't wake up every morning DREADING that I have to "diet" that day! I LOVE not having to "count" anything and I love all the food I eat! I don't even have cravings for all the junk food, because there are so many recipes that will satisfy my cravings, and are good for me!

I was 194 today. It's not coming off super duper fast, but I feel amazing, and I feel skinnier. Sometimes I can hardly believe that I'm not in the 200's anymore. I was there for 3 years, besides a quick week or two that I went below, but then went back up. I'm so excited to keep going down and eventually hitting my goal weight of 170-175. I pray that I will be pregnant before that happens...haha...but I am planning on staying on THM even during a pregnancy, so maybe I just wouldn't gain as much as I did with my son. Right now I'm just happy to be losing, even if it's not super fast, and not feeling like I'm dieting in the process! 180's watch out...I'm coming for you! :-)

Day 59

Yup. It's official. I have won the award for "The worst blogger EVER." I just have to accept the fact that as much as I would love to be, I am just not cut out for the blogging world. Great intentions are always there, but rarely followed through with!

  On a happier note, I am around 198 right now! I have been hovering around this number, give or take a pound either way, for a couple weeks now, but believe it or not, I'm fine with it! I had 2 small trips and a lot going on, and managed to pretty much stay on plan, with only a few small cheats. I ordered a new workout video which should arrive this week, and I'm super excited to get started with it. I only have a week and a half left of work, so it should be much easier to have time to work out after that. I would really love to be 185 when we go to Florida, but even if I was 190 and feeling trim from working out...I would be happy! I really feel confident that I can stay on plan for the vacation. Last night was the first night in 8 weeks that I really cheated. Like bread and butter, fried food, cheated. It was my husband's 30th birthday and my sister and husband took us out to eat. The place we went is known for their hot butter rolls with homemade cinnamon butter. I just decided that I was going to enjoy myself and get back on plan. Normally that doesn't happen for me. If I go off plan, it turns into a month off plan. I just love this new way of eating, that I knew I could jump right back on this morning without a problem. I was right. What I DIDN'T think of though, is how SICK the food would make me! I felt sick all night and crappy all day today! If anything, I am glad that I totally pigged out and felt sick, because it made me realize how much I don't want to go back to eating like that! I love how I feel eating the way I am now, even if the weight isn't always pouring off me! Lesson learned! :-)

It is the lovely time of month for me, so hopefully I can just hang in there and do my best this week and then start a nice workout regiment next week and start losing some inches. People say they usually gain some on this workout program, but lose inches, so I am prepared for the scale to go up a bit....just hoping not too much! :-) Have a great week everyone!

Day 97

Can you believe it? It is less than 100 days until we leave! I have to say, I am feeling AMAZING right now! I am on such a "high" right now, and I don't want to come off it! I was off grains completely for 11 days then started the "Trim Healthy Mama" way of eating this past Wednesday, and I'm loving it! I won't go into it, since I'm the only one reading this...haha...but I could see myself eating this way the rest of my life. I just feel like I have so much energy without any sugar and very, very little flour. Life is so busy right now with working so much, but I'm going to try to get back into working out soon. Once fall starts, I'd like to start running again if time allows it. I weighed 203 today, and I can just smell the 100's again. I just KNOW I can get to my goal in 97 days if I continue what I am doing. I love this way of eating so much, I can see myself even eating this way if I get pregnant again. I hope this motivation lasts!

Day 105

Sorry I haven't posted! I took pictures Monday and Tuesday, and then things came up at night and by the time I sat down, I was way too exhausted to post. I have been doing really well since Monday though, so I'm happy! I was 209.4 on Monday morning and this morning I was 205. As much as I want to be stoked about that, I have been between 200 and 210 for the past almost 2 years, so until I see Onederland again, I won't really be too excited. I'm feeling pretty good right now, and the bloated feeling is going away, so I need to keep it up! In only 5 days, I will be at the 100 day mark until our trip so I want to be feeling very confident when that day comes, and keep it going! When I hit even 199.9, I will be a happy woman! My goal is 185 for Florida. I think I can do 20 pounds in 100 days, don't you think? That is a pound every 5 days, and I think that is doable. I need to just....keep....swimming.....just....keep......swimming ;-)

Day 109

Oh yes...it's been forever. You know that I'm not doing great when I'm not blogging...lol! I've been really busy, was away for 4 days, and of course working 4 days a week. I need to make a plan tonight of what I am going to do. I really want to approach the 100 day mark in a good healthy streak, and feeling better. I just feel like garbage right now, and I hate it. I need to concentrate on eating healthier and stay away from junk food, sugar and processed foods. I think I might try to take pictures of what I eat and post it here. It might keep me from picking at everything in sight. Sorry this is so jumbled, but I just wanted to write something. I will be back tomorrow with pictures and a post. Hope you have a great weekend!

Day 124

Sorry I have been MIA for the past few days. I can say up until day 125 I was doing great. Right on track and feeling wonderful! Then yesterday happened. Between PMS and something that really upset me happening, I turned to food. I had a binge fest from 3pm till bedtime. I woke up this morning with such resolve to turn it around, but again I failed. The sad thing is, it can take me 9 days to lose 5 pounds, and only 2 to put it all back on. I'm not going to weigh myself tomorrow morning, but am going to try, yet again, to get back on track. I know in life that I'm going to have slip ups, but I need to learn how to brush it off, and just get back to it. That is where I struggle the most. I have no problem doing good for a week, two weeks, sometimes even a month, but it's like as soon as I have one "bad" meal, it turns into a month of bad meals before I can get it together! I really need to get that figured out, and I tell you, I would be skinny! :-)
 
  The one thing I can tell you from eating bad yesterday and today is I feel like CRAP! I wish there was a nicer word to explain it, but it is the truth! I'm so bloated, and I feel sick from all the nasty carbs I've eaten. As hard as eating low carb is, I feel amazing when I am doing it. Even if the scale isn't going down as fast as I would like it to be, my stomach feels flatter, and just my overall feeling is different. I need to get back at it.

  On Thursday I am going away with my dad to a baseball tournament to selling baseball equipment. It is going to be one of the most challenging weekends for me, for sure. We will be at a baseball field, surrounded by every burger joint, sub place, hot dog stand, ice cream and fried dough, and homemade lemon ice place you can imagine. And since my dad buys my food when we go away, I can't even use money as an excuse. AHHHH! To top it all off, I will have my cycle which is always when I struggle the most and my motivation is at an all time low. I am going to need prayers like no one's business for those four days. I don't want to let go and gain 5-6 pounds in a weekend. I need to start again tomorrow and get in a good mindset leading up to then. Pray for me! Hope you all have a great weekend!